Gah! I keep trying to write, but it won't come out. I would be at 200 posts by now if not for all the times I tried to write, but had second thoughts. Maybe that's good. I don't know what emotion I should be having...ha should. What emotion AM I having? I have no idea. Pick a subject, and maybe then I can tell you my feelings on it. Maybe not, though. There are so many facets to each situation. Things are getting better and worse at the same time.

Goodness gracious...things are going crazy! er!

Do you ever?

Do you ever have sudden urges to break free of everything? To run as far as your legs will take you, and never look back. To tell everyone exactly what you think and exactly why you think it. To be yourself and not even care. Do you ever want to do something irrational and see what happens? Or maybe simply expieriment scenarios in your brain, calculating everyone's reaction, and your own post action feelings. Do you ever laugh to yourself, because you know something that no one else knows? Or something that no one else believes? Do you ever want something, but keep reminding yourself that you shouldn't? Do you ever find yourself falling into thought, and emotion, and wondering where reality disappeared to? Do you ever?

I do. I think you do too sometimes.

I'm still waiting for it...

At the age of eleven or thereabouts women acquire a poise and an ability to handle difficult situations which a man, if he is lucky, manages to achieve somewhere in the later seventies. - PG Wodehouse

Peace

This is right. This is good. This is what I want, and it's something I should want. Soft glances, sweet smiles. Not rushed, not trudging. This is right. This is good. Cheerful words, and understanding silences. Not wanting anything anything more, not fearing anything less. The only one who could mess this up is me. It Thanks, Father. I needed this.

Finally!

Ha! I found him! And got in contact! Ha! Wow, no walls of distance and time are unconquerable. I hope he doesn't think I'm a stalker...I'm really not...oh well. I've completed my task. It feels so good.

Things are more like they are now than they ever have been before

Ok, I just had to tell ya'all this...it makes me happy. In "You're so True", Joseph Arthur sings my name :D haha it's really cool, because it makes the whole song as if it's to me, hehe. He says "All the day, All the time, You and I, Noelle. You're the waves of my ocean. Here's my ring and my devotion" haha ok, maybe he says "You and I know well" but still, it's pretty sweet.

Thomas S. Monson is my hero

"[The Lord's] sweet assurance . . . can guide you and me--in our time, in our day, in our lives. Of course, we will face fear, experience ridicule, and meet opposition. Let us have the courage to defy the consensus, the courage to stand for principle. Courage, not compromise, brings the smile of God's approval. Courage becomes aliving and an attractive virtue when it is regarded not only as a willingness to die manfully, but also as a determination to live decently.A moral coward is one who is afraid to do what he thinks is right because others will disapprove or laugh. Remember that all men have their fears, but those who face their fears with dignity have courage as well."

Kindness

I used to think that was all that mattered. But there's something more. In being a leader, kindess is extremely important. You have to love your section. However, you also have to lead with determination, correction, and purpose. Acting like a friend doesn't always gain someone's respect. Just because you love them doesn't ensure that they will follow. Neither does discipline. A combination of both Christ-like love, and caring reproof only for the good of the person and section will be effective. Man, and preparation...I need to go.