My new favorite words:

innocuous: harmless; also, unlikely to offend or provoke.
imbroglio: a complicated and embarrassing state of things.
quandary: a state of difficulty or perplexity

The Wind Dance

Gusts the size of cannonballs, strength of trees tested. Bare feet and hair let loose. The wind is mighty, and roars its dominion. But I laugh. There is no one else upon that field of grass. Only me and the bipolar phenomenon of nature. This morning, that wind caressed my cheek, softened the heat. Now, it yells and pushes. Still, I laugh. For though he pushes me softly and pretends to wish me harm, this wind will be quiet again, will be loving again. We will be friends again. But for now, I dance.

Some new stuff

WOW. This summer is really going to be a landmark thing for me. I have made so many new friends. These are people who have high standards, good senses of humor, and actually are ok with putting up with me! It's tons of fun to talk to them, and we have tons of hilarious inside jokes. We're going to do pilates every weekday morning, and it's all going to be awesome. I have friends in my stake, Seminary council, marching band, and my awesome old friends of Junior High. More importantly, I have a new independence. I am less dependent upon others to make me happy, although I am gaining more friends who do make me extremely happy. I can be happy on my own, and I can be happy with my friends. I won't be sad when my friends aren't with me, but I will be especially glad when I can be with them. I hope this is all making sense...Anyway, I am not dependent upon one person for all my happiness, or all my unhappiness. The more I am ok with being on my own, I think it will be more likely for people to want to spend time with me. As long as I don't go antisocial or indifferent, anyway. Still, I don't think it's possible for me to be indifferent or antisocial.